Friends on fb recommended various sites to download, and so my quest began. Some sites were questionable, others had unapproved Apple applications. I figured out how to open them, but then hit other unexplainable road blocks. At midnight the download was available at AMC.com, so I waited up, but without cable affiliation in my current zip code I couldn't open it. At 1am it popped up on itunes, BUT my very SLOW internet connection the download wouldn't be complete for another five hours. I admit it, I screamed. I seriously contemplated driving to a Starbucks or hotel lobby in search of a fast connection. Put the computer down. I did, rationalizing I could wake up at 6am, refreshed, and watch Walter White's demise. It took an hour for my mind to settle, let go of the frustration, and drift off. My subconscious did not fully participate, Walt and Jesse populated my dreams. At daylight, I awoke as if I had been in battle, but excited nonetheless. Yet somehow, in the middle of the night, with 78 minutes to go, the download paused. My Breaking Bad odyssey wasn't over, but I needed a break from my obsession. I continued the download, went to a yoga class, and returned, clear-headed, to watch Felina.
Wow. Even watching on my laptop on a glorious sunny morning I was transported, and easily absorbed in the unraveling of this story, and the criminal actions of Walter White. I was surprised by the emotion, and respected the calm in which so many scenes were executed. For the most part, the fighting and violence were in the past. The lies certainly were. This episode was finally about the truth, and righting wrongs.